|In my head, I'm already fifty.|
Alternate Titles For This Blog Post:
What About 30 Is So Scary?
In My Head I’m Already Fifty
We’ll All Get Old, Deal With It
Aversion To Ending Your Twenties Is So Overrated
Thirty Is The Real Adulthood, Kids!
People Will Start Taking You More Seriously At Thirty
Of Course You’re Still Allowed To Take Selfies And Use Emojis
I Feel Like A Giddy Tweener When texting “OMGs” and “LOLz”
‘Ain't afraid of the walls, I'm a break 'em down’ – a line from the song ‘RuleThe World’ by Walk Off The Earth that pretty much sums up how I feel about turning thirty. While nothing magical really happens when you turn thirty, I couldn’t help but slipped into a contemplative mode for hitting such a major milestone.
This whole growing up thing is comely incredible even for someone who’s already grown. I think it’s beautiful and nothing, not even that extra little wrinkle that comes with aging will ever freak me out. To me, this shift into a new decade is more than just about looks. It’s not so much about accomplishments either because when it comes right down to what truly matters, nothing beats personal growth. Thirty is not a seamless age but it’s a fantastic time. There’s an outpour of self-realizations, noting all of the lessons, trials, triumphs and breakthroughs I’ve accumulated from the past decade as surge of confidence and appreciation knocks you and changes everything.
|Because my family knows me a little too well.|
Now newly thirty, what seems scary to me before, it isn’t anymore. I still haven’t figured everything out entirely, but I’m a heck of a lot closer than I was at twenty. I think about all the things I thought were a good idea in my twenties and just cringed so hard with embarrassment, like, ‘why, Anie, why?!’ Yet the foolishness, frustrations as well as the constant challenges, all helped define a character, a skill, confidence and patience. I didn’t exactly wake up with a head full of sage wisdom but there’s an intense sense of focus and clarity now. The wandering stops, the restlessness is over, opportunities passed, mistakes are made, the rest are bs and along the way, you learn to trust yourself more, discerned your calling and see that time is truly limited. Though I don’t have forever, I certainly still have the present to allow me to take a path I haven’t yet taken, a better path that I’m still in good shape to try to take as I finally put the beautiful, the reckless, naivety of my twenties to rest. After all, I’m thirty now. I WILL live like it.